About finding real L.O.V.E?

How to find real love?

Don't ask me. I'm not an expert in it. I'm just telling you what I think about the subject of finding real love or a life partner.

The reason for this posting?

Haha ..cause, most of the time people keep lamenting about it. About, their personal problem of finding real love or a good life partner. Most, of the time, I speak through my own experiences.

I've found love myself, well, at least that's what I think. 7-8 years of ups and down. For all it's worth, I'm glad I met her. But, I didn't get to marry that someone though. Bummer. That's why, I've been telling to myself and others - Nothing, last forever and sometime, you don't get to marry that someone you think you should be married to. That's just part and parcel of life. Move on.

A guy told me once that he didn't get to marry someone he like. He had to marry someone chosen by his parent. Duh, I didn't really thought that kind of thing still exist. Okay, maybe, it still does. Some, people though get married just for the sake of getting married. Maybe, to show off and not because of true love. I guess, we all know that life aren't perfect and we don't really get what we want in life sometime, aye?

I have also talk to some girls about their search for the 'holy grail' of finding a good bf. They, can't seem to find that 'perfect' guy or, so they thought. I think, some girls fall too easily in love. Just, because a guy like you doesn't mean that he's going to stay true to you. Guys, are easy. If you're beautiful, with sexy legs, tight butts and big boobs then, they're sold!

I know, I'm one of them. LoL!

I'm pretty sure I'm not alone on this. We've, all had friends who seems to fall for the wrong guy or women. Like, I've said, it's just part and parcel of life. Try, as we might to find the right person but we end up on the wrong end of the loops. Keep, searching then. But, please, don't be too desperate in finding a life partner or boyfriend or whatever. Sometime, you'll find that someone special in strange places or circumstances. Everything, is pretty much fated. Just, like death. We all going to die aren't we?

Don't feel bad if you think you're going to die alone. If you're gonna die alone, you'll die alone. You can't escape that fact. Why, think about it?

Just, live your life the way you want to and be happy. No point in harping about it. Be, happy that you're single and carefree. If you think, you've find someone that's worthwhile to go through all that hassle of being married then do it. For, better or worse, you make your choice.

Personally, I don't think I'm gonna ever find 'love' anymore since my breakup with my last real girlfriend. She's the only one that I actually feel love and I'm not sure if you can love another after that. Yes, I might find someone that will make me forget her but I don't think it's going to be love. Maybe, lust? LoL!

Well, life is strange isn't it?

Just, when you think, you're going to stay single then someone pop up in your life. Hey, if that happens to me then I'm happy. If not, then I'll just be happy too. I believe in fate and God's plans. Have faith.

My ex is like a template for me. She's kind, help me a lot when I was down. I always hold her hands when we go out. We, seldom really fight. We talk about stuff and ask each other opinions about jobs etc. I know that someone she's married to, going to be really happy with her. I'm happy as long as she's happy. She deserves it.

Now, when I look at someone, I know what kind of girl I want. Before, I knew her, I didn't know what kind of girl I really want. There are so many girls you meet in your life so whom or how do you choose?

So, now, my mind is pretty clear and unless she's better then my last girlfriend I'm pretty sure I'm going to stay single. For me, being single isn't a problem. Yeah, people told me about the bliss of a married life. But, really?

All, I see is incompetence!

People, are getting divorce left and right. Some, ain't pretty I can assure you of that. Even, my parents are divorced since I was like 9, I think. I don't know why but unless, I find someone that I see is worth all the trouble of getting married and having a family then I'm staying single. Anyway, as long as I'm happy right?

Right, now, I'm pretty relax and happy with my life. I'm not rich or anything like that. I work a normal 8-5 job. I don't drink, smoke or party. I lead a simple life. That's how I like it. That's why sometime I think I'll bulk at the mere mention of marriage. Things, will definitely get noisy and messy and all that crap. Yeah, I know, some people think it's worth it. Well, that's them. I'm pretty much a quiet person who like a quiet and tranquil environment. I like doing my own stuff and as much as I love having my own kids, I prefer keeping life simple as it is. Anyway, I treat my nephews as my own children. So, I feel I know the life of a parent.

Life isn't simple and so are being in love. Live, the life you want to live. Be happy no matter if you're single or married. You'll find that someone, if it's fated. And, sometime, you might find that what I've said in this post are true. After all that you've gone through in a relationship being single isn't all that bad.

Finding, real love?

It might just be around the corner.. or maybe, NOT!

Nothin lust forever

Sooo, today, I went to visit my ex-gf of 8 years. We separated around 3 years ago. I emailed her couple of time. There wasn't any response. I still harbor hope that we could some day be together again. But, turn out she's already engaged!

I was really stumped, when was told by her mom. But, I tried to keep my cool. I really wanted to see and talk to her. I, didn't really believe it at first or maybe, didn't want to. But, when her younger brother came back home and ask me what's wrong and told me his sister getting married soon. I finally, slowly started to accept the fact.

I told him, I wanted to see my ex and talk some personal stuff with her. He, was really trying to get me to talk to him instead and told me he's her younger brother. But, I told him, I know that. But, he's not the one I wanted to talk to. Anyway, to cut the story short. I gave him my phone number which somehow I know, she wouldn't call anyway.

I, didn't really get to see her for at least the last time. But, I guess, it's my fault and maybe it's for the better. She's engaged soon to be married. I'm feeling kind of sad. But, at the same time I'm happy cause my plan works. I left her, in the hope that she'll find someone else better. I'm just useless. I can't seem to save enough to get married. I'm too lazy. haha. So, this is what I get for being too damn lazy. Sigh. What, can I do now?

I want to forget the whole episode today. This is the day, that, my love story ended. She's been the one that I had really truly loved. I've been telling her all this while that nothing lust forever. And, so, it came true for me today.

I guess, it's finally over. I should move one. And, so, I should.

Have a great wedding and a long happy married life. I'm happy for you. But, in the end sad for me. But, heck, that's life. I feel like crying, but, I don't really want to. I know, I should. But, again, I think I wouldn't. Sigh. Let's move on..